I mentioned during my last newsletter that I received a reiki & records healing session with Jess at The Conscious Crow. This session gave me much clarity on areas I need to address within myself in order to progress towards my goals. I started out detailing my experience with the session and the work I’m doing as a result in this blog post, but it became outrageously long. I’ve decided to split this into two posts. Part 1 will be the retelling of my experience with Jess, while Part 2 will cover the experiences I’m having as a result of the work I did with Jess. Enjoy.
The Session
I know Jess as a fellow vendor at the various markets I work at, so when I arrived in her workspace at Awaken Yourself we easily settled into catching up with each other. We started by pulling an oracle card, which she interpreted as my needing to get clear on my vision. I must admit, when it comes to manifesting my desires I often leave my vision open-ended. It’s different when I’m problem-solving: the outcome I seek and the steps to get there are clearly defined and seamless. Ask me what I want when there’s no pressure to survive and I draw blanks or leave things open-ended. It occurs to me that my struggle with this is likely directly related to the challenges in my root and sacral areas that I will be getting into later; I have lived my entire life in survival mode, which doesn’t leave a lot of room for daydreaming.
I felt drawn to a second card, which Jess allowed me to pull. I don’t recall exactly what the card was, but I think it was probably about rest. I’ve been inundated with messages about healing through rest in the last several months. I am proud to say that in the last 2 months in particular I have made it a daily habit to lay down without distractions for at least an hour or two. I especially feel rejuvenated when I listen to a yoga nidra meditation while my daughter is napping. With that, we proceeded to the restful part of the session: the reiki table.
I settled on the table and adorned the provided sleep mask while Jess got to work. I allowed myself to melt into the experience as she placed her hands on my head. I felt an intense warmth in my third eye region, followed by the distinct recognition of my husband’s presence at the table. (I have not had much reason to go into detail about this, but my husband is a bit of a freak of nature in his uncanny ability to be projected into the astral 24/7, often occupying multiple projections at once while going about his day-to-day life. It is amusing when I introduce him to people who can see spirits and energy; few have ever met someone who does what he does and it looks very strange to them.) During the session I could sense him deploying a protective wall of fire around the workspace while Jess moved to my arms and legs. Once she reached my midsection, I recognized my Great Grandmother’s presence standing beside me as she often does during these experiences. From there, I felt ongoing waves of cold descending down my legs and feet and this lasted until the end of the reiki session. I did not receive much in the way of downloads or visions during the reiki like I thought I would have, but I did have a lot of funny memories with my husband pop up throughout.
We transitioned back to the seating area to access the akashic records portion of the session. Jess confirmed the presence of my husband and my Great Grandmother during the reiki and reported that my body was an energetic dead zone from the waist down, and especially on the entire left side of my body. I was once told by an old friend that my body was disconnected from the waist down, and when I asked if he could do something about it he told me that it wouldn’t be appropriate for him to try because the disconnection was due to trauma that I have to choose to face. It had been so many years since he told me that, and I have done so much inner work and achieved leaps and bounds of improvement, that I thought maybe this would have resolved or improved on its own by now. Not so. What was revealed by the records and my Great Grandmother is that this blockage was inherited matrilineally from my Irish ancestry. Some of it could be traced to some early childhood experiences of mine, especially around the age of 7, but primarily it is inherited trauma.
The records also revealed some fascinating information about my past lives. Apparently I was repeatedly sacrificed to gods, or sacrificed myself to them in devotion, over and over and over. This is something being corrected in this lifetime and explains why I had such an intense phobia of unknown origin towards deity work early in my practice (thank you spirit link). It is also the reason why I have been approached by no less than 12 deities in my practice, who I regularly work with and receive much for which I am grateful, without being asked a lot of me in return. I’ve always felt that it was a bit odd that I seem to have all these really pleasant working relationships with my deities where I get to retain all of my agency and never feel pressured to pledge or obligate myself to their worship, especially the dark goddesses. This information relayed by Jess erased any doubt I had about the way I go about my devotional work, and I feel affirmed in my approach of giving to my deities as I can and freely feel called to without a sense of obligation. Jess also revealed to me a past life where I had been a Catholic priest, but that it was a very enjoyable experience for me. This gave context to my undying fondness for my Catholic upbringing in spite of my later turning to paganism. I had never put much thought into past life exploration before, so this was very interesting to experience.
I also received some guidance on reconnecting with my husband in lieu of us having our first child, but largely the session focused on healing my energy body and releasing ancestral blockages. I left with the homework to spend some more time investigating what happened when I was 7 years old and doing ancestral work to heal my root and sacral regions, and so I began my research. What follows can be found in part 2.
